rations versus rational and all the revolutionary accroutements such as hard tack

ishmael [3:26 PM]: if i was a flavour, i think i would be 'molasses'

because you can make rum from molasses

danger man [3:27 PM]: you are positing that someone boil you in a copper kettle?

ishmael [3:27 PM]: rum used to be one of those things that only poor people drank cuz none of the sugar refineries wanted the by product

i'm sure eventually someone will boil me down in a copper pot

i have THAT many enemies

danger man [3:29 PM]: that's why you need to start over in central america

ishmael [3:29 PM]: i read a funny woody allen story the other day

'viva vargas: excerpts from the diary of a revolutionary'

i keep strange books in my washroom so that when people use it they wonder ' who is the person who keeps this one so fastidiously clean?'

danger man [3:33 PM]: the things you say sound like innocent harmless quirks

like planning a pancake order in advance

or else the prologue to a killing spree

ishmael [3:34 PM]: let's settle in the middle and call it adult onset autism

danger man [3:35 PM]: let's

ishmael [3:35 PM]: i am for sure 'weird'

i don't know if i'd go so far as to shave a norfolk pine or anything

but i am mos def sorta quirky

danger man [3:49 PM]: indeed you are

ishmael [3:49 PM]: and single! tell all your quirky friends

danger man[3:50 PM]: I only have one lesbian friend

ishmael [3:54 PM]: who is this friend? me?

danger man [3:56 PM]: elementary watson

ishmael [3:57 PM]: Occam's razor?

danger man [3:57 PM]: I bet he didn't have any hair in the way

the bukowski of bridgeland and the dreams she makes come true

simple [9:31 AM]: good morning dear

ishmael [9:31 AM]: good morning

there's a new murakami book coming out

simple [9:33 AM]: that is wonderfully exciting

or at least I am excited

frantic with excitedness

in caslon bold

ishmael [9:39 AM]: i forwarded the email to your gmail account

simple [9:57 AM]: do you have facebook now?

ishmael [9:59 AM]: no, i will never have facebook

simple [9:59 AM]: i didn't think so

ishmael [9:59 AM]: not even when tempted by haruki murakami

simple [10:00 AM]: so he has posted his chapters on facebook

aaahhh

ishmael [2:39 PM]: let me know how they are

simple [2:57 PM]: the chapters? certainly lady.

' wanna free ticket to the sex show and a greasy appetizer?'

ishmael [3:37 PM]: rick is always painful to talk to

' you don't sound like you are in a good mood'

ish: my stomach hurts so i'm just moving slow today. not in a bad mood though

' oh: i KNOW when you're in a bad mood'

danger man [3:38 PM]: he needs an egg roll

ishmael [3:38 PM]: ish: ummmm, thanks?

and then he just kind of keeps talking

ishmael [4:00 PM]: what was the name of his roller skate shindig thinger again?

danger man [4:02 PM]: Rick's Rock and Egg Roll Emporium

ishmael [4:02 PM]: he should probably also sell floor coverings on the side

danger man [4:02 PM]: said with a distinctly 1960's racist chinese accent

ishmael [4:02 PM]: isn't he Filipino?

danger man [4:03 PM]: he said he'd wear a kimono and sell egg rolls

ishmael [4:03 PM]: that's rike, 8 diff't types of asian

danger man [4:03 PM]: it sounded like a japanese henchman from a 1950s cartoon

lock and egg lorr empolium

ishmael [4:04 PM]: who was the dude in james bond who threw his bowler???

danger man [4:04 PM]: odd job?

ishmael [4:04 PM]: YES!

i had an odd job action figure as a kid, with spring action for whipping his hat

danger man [4:04 PM]: I'm thinking more like a Bullwinkle level of racism

ishmael [4:05 PM]: aaaaaaaaaaaaaand i just discovered another thing to search for on netflix

' hey rocky! watch me pulla rabbit outta my hat!'

' not again!!!! that trick NEVER works!'

everbody knows that i'm a fool

it is the truth that hurts.

never a lie; never a want.

the anniversary of an unfounded distraction.

because i am a fool.

and everybody knows...

my desk

my desk, at 2 am
littered with mugs and business cards
derelict lighters that
have no business purporting to be of assistance when
you most need assistance
and another set of receipts
that neither step up
or stitch
the holes up


and when will

the dainty lilts match with my approximation
of being fooled and
hearing all of this accurately
or hearing it all.
cut the neck out, cut the sleeves
off
and make room for the breath
i so desperately

aspire to breathing.

and from the depths , and their compression
of idyllic
approximations of
scale and rhyme

understand that i
am a fool

and that is what we breathe when we speak
waiting for the
stops
step step and recoil

step step and stitch the holes
in between
these fabricated
workings of a whole lot of
runs to
uncertainty

when we work so hard
only to see
that she's always been the
work i need to carry
on and carry
regardless of a name
and

being a fool.
stitched and worn but
blameless in
my endless dancing



a time and a place
a rhyme and a memory of oh such
a beautiful
face


foolish as i may
purport to be



i'll always be a fool
always and forever
happily

keep the sculpture because the smell of las vegas motel rooms never felt so close to a former home

boom. for real...

there's a time for this

a battery of empty soldiers standing vigil
on the counter
counted and looking for a verification of sorts
one, two , whence we stop this dance
an unfortunate foxtrot

one, two, sidestep and reprise
once we decide to stop
dancing and decide to buckle down for the larger
purpose
of this semi serious
visitation
of former feelings and frightened admittances

and all you've ever wanted just dies
things ain't like they used to be and that's
just fine
a reprise is another way to let
the people you love
know that you've tried.